after the year of somethings and thoughts

On this page, I do think there was a sense of finality in that last post in December. It was not designed to go dormant or anything like that, but I had set out to do a year of monthly posts focusing on my experiences with therapy, my past, recovery, and learning through a diagnosis. I think I let some of the technical matters fall to the wayside a bit but do think the meat of it was there. It was odd balancing learning and therapy and deciding what I wanted to actually share. The process, obviously, is just for me. It was not an experience to be entirely broadcasted. But I felt the need to throw some words out there, in case anyone could relate or learn something or avoid the same mistakes I have made. Safeguard against the same pain I had self-inflicted, created, and caused for others. I do think there's a utility there. But I kept (and will always keep) some things for myself. 

So where does that leave us now? 

I'm not sure there's a purpose in setting a mandatory schedule this year. If I had, I have already broken it, and that's not my style. I think some ideas that are shared will definitely be more mundane. Actual "blogginess" and not entirely about health/recovery/improvement. Because (as you may have picked up in my year of thoughts) social media and the like bears little interest to me these days. I bring that up, because the type of writing I am thinking of posting here now kind of lends itself towards the tumblr of yesteryear. That platform was every bit of everything awful I think of when I consider that nebulous void that is "online," but there was a simplicity and a joy in writing a few lines and just sharing it.

I think that's what I'll do here. Maybe writing about creative processes or the odd memory that comes to me. I'm sure some self-improvement will slip through, as the habits and learning I've developed in the last few years are a continuing process and will never disappear from my routine. But I want an outlet for ideas that are not appropriate for my main website. Not everything in my life is related to haunted dolls and abandoned buildings. Though only tenuously. 

If there is any "following" to be done now, I'd recommend keeping up as a follower on patreon, even (especially) as a free member. This isn't a sales pitch, I intend on sharing all written posts publicly. But it can serve as a notification for free members as well as a sneak peek of upcoming things. Lord knows I'm not going to be spamming it elsewhere like I used to. I'm not interested in the interaction or messages from strangers. Read through my year of thoughts if you must know why. 

I do still have an instagram and threads, but they are barely used. I'm torn between keeping them for posterity and as an archive of all of the cool people and places I've encountered, and just deleting them. Sometimes, pictures are better than words, and I love the medium. But the social aspect I can do without and the attention/numbers I do not need. Having basically children follow the account and to have them then proceed liking my pictures all the way back, to likely before they were born, is a little unsettling to say the least.

So patreon and sometimes threads will be the place for notifications about main blog posts and ongoing projects. I don't much wish to share anything beyond that, and burden communicating with strangers outside the realm of said content. That's where it'll be, at least until I inevitably nuke threads. 

If and when that happens, you'll know where to find me.